my current tv has been moved twice and though it’s only a few years old, it’s dying a slow gasping death. the picture isn’t sharp anymore and the speakers always make a sort of humming white noise. lately i’ve noticed the picture is projecting slightly larger than the viewable area of the screen, and the image is slightly tilted. i fear one day i’ll flip the thing on and it’ll *pop* and die.
since middle school i’ve not been able to go anywhere without lip balm. it is the only thing i am actually psychologically addicted to, and i will quietly freak out if i’ve somehow forgotten it in another pair of pants.

for many years i worshipped at the altar of burt’s bees beeswax lip balm. my friend meghan recommended it (i think her then-boyfriend, now-husband josh used it?) and it was the right consistency and had a peppermint tingle. then i realized it had no uv protection. since my greatest vanity-related feas is withered-old-lady lips, i had to find something with spf. i started using c.o. bigelow spf 15 mentha lip balm after hitting bath & body works with my friend maria. spf 15! no shine! minty-fresh! only downside: it’s really soft and tends to get melty. but, a little goes a long way, so it feels like a bargain.
‘wanted’ did nothing to help me get over my fear of snipers.
i can’t remember when i first became paranoid about snipers, but at one point in my childhood i wanted to be a sniper, so maybe that’s the root of it all; imagining being a sniper, and thinking like a sniper, makes one realize how vulnerable one is.
i will say, i’m less anxious about them now than a few years ago. i no longer feel vaguely uneasy in rooms with large/lots of windows, and can go for days without eyeing nearby rooftops. but still - no more than 2 months ago i asked an ex-boyfriend if he could think of any phobias i might have (no idea why i was asking after this information, but i couldn’t think of what my ‘greatest fear’ might be), and he immediately answered, “snipers.”
‘wanted’ did nothing to help me get over my fear of snipers.
i can’t remember when i first became paranoid about snipers, but at one point in my childhood i wanted to be a sniper, so maybe that’s the root of it all; imagining being a sniper, and thinking like a sniper, makes one realize how vulnerable one is.
i will say, i’m less anxious about them now than a few years ago. i no longer feel vaguely uneasy in rooms with large/lots of windows, and can go for days without eyeing nearby rooftops. but still - no more than 2 months ago i asked an ex-boyfriend if he could think of any phobias i might have (no idea why i was asking after this information, but i couldn’t think of what my ‘greatest fear’ might be), and he immediately answered, “snipers.”

i want a pet snow leopard. i could ride him down the side of the mountain - he would be so fast! he could protect me from muggers/intruders with his fangs and claws. he would be cuddly at night and i could rub his ears and hold his giant fluffy tail, or maybe curl it around me like a big self-heated scarf. all around, it would be awesome. even better? if we were telepathically linked like gert and old lace in ‘runaways’!
this is not the cover for this book. plinky’s ‘find artwork’ thing seems to be broken.
the run-on sentences and overly-elaborate trying-to-sound-smart word choices, that some people seem to think are artistic and deep (i suspect i’d dislike these people) were so exhaustingly annoying that i stopped after 5 pages. i’ve never not finished a book before, or since. i suppose i’d finish ‘the double’ if someone paid me at least $100.
i don’t listen to much radio, but when i do, a lot of it sticks.
Sara Bareilles
by
Love Song
loved it from the first moment i heard it. really catchy, simple but great piano part. good pop songs are hard to write, you know?
Flashing Lights
by
Kanye West
the first time i heard this song was in a store in LA. i had just moved away from chicago, and this song took me back to dancing at darkroom or subterranean.
have not seen
saw but don’t remember well or incomplete
have seen
AFI MOVIES OF THE YEAR-OFFICIAL SELECTIONS
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
The Dark Knight
Frost/Nixon
- Frozen River
- Gran Torino
Iron Man
- Milk
Wall-E
- Wendy and Lucy
The Wrestler
AFI TV PROGRAMS OF THE YEAR-OFFICIAL SELECTIONS
- Breaking Bad
- In Treatment
John Adams
- Life
Lost
Mad Men
- The Office
- Recount
- The Shield
- The Wire
have not seen
saw but don’t remember well or incomplete
have seen
1 : Citizen Kane, 1941
2 : Casablanca, a1942
3 : The Godfather, 1972
4 : Gone with the Wind, 1939
5 : Lawrence of Arabia, 1962
6 : The Wizard of Oz, 1939
7 : The Graduate, 1967
- 8 : On the Waterfront, 1954
9 : Schindler’s List, 1993
10 : Singin’ in the Rain, 1952
11 : It’s a Wonderful Life, 1946
12 : Sunset Boulevard, 1950
- 13 : The Bridge on the River Kwai, 1957
- 14 : Some Like It Hot, 1959
15 : Star Wars, 1977
- 16 : All About Eve, 1950
- 17 : The African Queen, 1951
18 : Psycho, 1960
19 : Chinatown, 1974
20 : One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest, 1975
- 21 : The Grapes of Wrath, 1940
22 : 2001: A Space Odyssey, 1968
- 23 : The Maltese Falcon, 1941
24 : Raging Bull, 1980
25 : E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial, 1982
- 26 : Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb, 1964
27 : Bonnie and Clyde, 1967
28 : Apocalypse Now, 1979
- 29 : Mr. Smith Goes to Washington, 1939
- 30 : The Treasure of the Sierra Madre, 1948
31 : Annie Hall, 1977
- 32 : The Godfather Part II, 1974
33 : High Noon, 1952
- 34 : To Kill a Mockingbird, 1962
35 : It Happened One Night, 1934
- 36 : Midnight Cowboy, 1969
- 37 : The Best Years of Our Lives, 1946
38 : Double Indemnity, 1944
- 39 : Doctor Zhivago, 1965
40 : North by Northwest, 1959
- 41 : West Side Story, 1961
42 : Rear Window, 1954
- 43 : King Kong, 1933
- 44 : The Birth of a Nation, 1915
45 : A Streetcar Named Desire, 1951
46 : A Clockwork Orange, 1971
- 47 : Taxi Driver, 1976
48 : Jaws, 1975
- 49 : Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, 1937
- 50 : Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid, 1969
51 : The Philadelphia Story, 1940
- 52 : From Here to Eternity, 1953
53 : Amadeus, 1984
- 54 : All Quiet on the Western Front, 1930
- 55 : The Sound of Music, 1965
- 56 : M*A*S*H, 1970
- 57 : The Third Man, 1949
- 58 : Fantasia, 1940
59 : Rebel Without a Cause, 1955
60 : Raiders of the Lost Ark, 1981
61 : Vertigo, 1958
- 62 : Tootsie, 1982
- 63 : Stagecoach, 1939
64 : Close Encounters of the Third Kind, 1977
65 : The Silence of the Lambs, 1991
66 : Network, 1976
- 67 : The Manchurian Candidate, 1962
- 68 : An American in Paris, 1951
- 69 : Shane, 1953
- 70 : The French Connection, 1971
71 : Forrest Gump, 1994
- 72 : Ben-Hur, 1959
- 73 : Wuthering Heights, 1939
- 74 : The Gold Rush, 1925
75 : Dances with Wolves, 1990
- 76 : City Lights, 1931
- 77 : American Graffiti, 1973
- 78 : Rocky, 1976
- 79 : The Deer Hunter, 1978
- 80 : The Wild Bunch, 1969
- 81 : Modern Times, 1936
- 82 : Giant, 1956
- 83 : Platoon, 1986
- 84 : Fargo, 1996
- 85 : Duck Soup, 1933
- 86 : Mutiny on the Bounty, 1935
- 87 : Frankenstein, 1931
- 88 : Easy Rider, 1969
- 89 : Patton, 1970
- 90 : The Jazz Singer, 1927
- 91 : My Fair Lady, 1964
- 92 : A Place in the Sun, 1951
- 93 : The Apartment, 1960
- 94 : Goodfellas, 1990
95 : Pulp Fiction, 1994
96 : The Searchers, 1956
- 97 : Bringing Up Baby, 1938
- 98 : Unforgiven, 1992
- 99 : Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner, 1967
- 100 : Yankee Doodle Dandy, 1942